i am absolutely livid that i live in a country where the punishment for drug possession is likely to be years in prison but if you have a badge the punishment for murder is most likely two weeks of paid suspension
The logic seems to be that: because I moved to Nashville; because I did what I wanted to do, and what everyone around me thought was necessary; because I am actively pursuing my own ambitions; because I work in the entertainment industry; I am not allowed to fail and, more importantly, not allowed to express that I do in fact struggle like every other person after leaving home.
I wouldn’t go back were the world offered to me, and I love Nashville — that doesn’t mean there still aren’t obstacles. I am still broke, I am still anxiety-ridden, and I still have to pretend that I am not.
Aren’t we all broke and anxiety-ridden? What’s the point of pretending that we are all collectively not pressured by the same forces? I find myself hard-pressed to name anyone under the age of 30 that has their shit together. At least in the real world.
So let’s stop pretending. It’d be a much better use of our time helping each other along instead of pretending our problems are not the same.
Yes, there are bigger problems in the world. Racism, misogyny, sexism, theocracy, class warfare, physical warfare, genocide: they are all much bigger fish in an ocean that often seems poisonous. But maybe if we were to begin by helping each other and acknowledging our simplest struggles, the ones that we all share, then the greater struggles will be easier to sooth.
ISIS are not Muslims , a statement acknowledged by millions of followers of Islam. The teachings of our Prophet of peace and love is not echoed by these murders. These people can not even be called Humans for such atrocities against Humanity. The message that has been lulled into my heart is being…
After a little emotional dip this week I’ve got my head above water again. Feeling love and feeling loved, what more could I ask for?
I’ve decided to refocus the next year on my writing and production instead of my own artistry. It seems my image is a bit of a turnoff to the cash hounds in Nashville, so I’m stepping out of the spotlight for a minute. To put it simply I won’t be creating anything as myself for myself anymore, but I’ll still be creating as myself for other people. Just for a year to see how I like the fit. I figure that I’m young enough to take a few left turns from the original path. More than anything, this is to relieve myself of the stress that my own negative self image has imposed on me and the damper it’s put on my career (and more importantly, my creativity) for the last year-and-a-half whilst I learn to let go; get myself in shape without it impeding my work; learn to love my own skin without feeling rushed by it. I am not giving up, I am just refocusing my efforts towards the arena of my career that is moving forward with its own momentum.
Aquarius will still be available and will serve exactly the purpose I intended for it from the onset: to present a diverse, varied picture of my abilities, to showcase my songwriting, and to give you all the music I’d been holding for close to two years so that I could finally progress past it as a creator.
Just a year, folks.
At the moment I’m writing constantly, my creativity is wide open, and I feel very in tune with The Muse right now — something I haven’t felt in a long time. I’d like to think it has something to do with the fact that I’m completely enamored by another soul for the first time in my life, but I suppose it’s safe to wait and see before jumping to that conclusion. I am beyond satisfied romantically, though, and it’s wonderful to feel appreciated beyond my just abilities by someone who so easily stops my world on a dime with only eye contact.
I didn’t mean to fall so quickly for him. I didn’t mean for my world to collapse under the weight of itself at the first sight of those gorgeous brown eyes, or for time to stop as we walked through Hillsboro Village talking about linguistics and musical theory. I certainly didn’t mean to refer to him as my boyfriend in such a short amount of time. But I have to tell you, reader, when I’m with him my entire existence is rationalized. Everything I’ve ever done, everywhere I’ve been, it’s all been to prepare me for him; for how perfect he is for me — as if our souls were crafted simultaneously as counterparts to the other.
On the topic of cultural appropriation, exclusivists really confound me. I understand completely that there are words that should never be appropriated into the mainstream lexicon, but it’s when people try to make the case that articles of clothing and music shouldn’t be…
Like I said, I’m only just forming an opinion on the whole thing. I appreciate your input :)
Cultural Appropriation, when Appropriate, is Necessary.
On the topic of cultural appropriation, exclusivists really confound me. I understand completely that there are words that should never be appropriated into the mainstream lexicon, but it’s when people try to make the case that articles of clothing and music shouldn’t be appropriated and rather left to their individual cultures that I have to disagree.
Society doesn’t progress without the inclusion of everyone’s history and the collective respect, understanding, and continuation of that history. For the zeitgeist to modulate and evolve, appropriation has to occur. I realize that it’s a very superficial opinion of the whole thing, but for the evolution of culture there must be an evolution of the pop culture.
My Most Anticipated Albums for the Next Half of 2014
The first six months of 2014 have actually given us some wonderful music in an age where that phrase is as fleeting as possible. New tunes and albums are discovered, loved, cycled through, and discarded at rapid-fire speeds that would make the music fans of yesteryear absolutely cringe. What a relief, then, that this year has heralded great records by Schoolboy Q, Ed Sheeran, Lily Allen, NONONO, Future Islands, Ab-Soul, Magic!, 5 Seconds of Summer (genuinely shocking right?), Michael Jackson, and EMA. Here’s what I’m looking forward to for the next six months — in no particular order.
25 - Adele
Untitled Second Studio Album - Frank Ocean
V - Maroon 5 (only because “Maps” is the best single they’ve put out since 2010’s Hands All Over)
Sparks - Imogen Heap
Innerworld - Electric Youth
Being - Moazrt’s Sister
1000 Forms of Fear - Sia
Get Hurt - The Gaslight Anthem
Untitled Debut Studio Album - Logic
Untitled Third Studio Album - Marina & The Diamonds
Untitled Seventh Studio Album - Kanye West
Goddess - Banks
El Pintor - Interscope
And, in the meantime till I can check those out and start writing reviews again, check out my new album Aquarius
We’re back to rehearsal today for a show on Friday at the LEGENDARY FooBar in East Nashville. If you need something to do Friday, head over at 8. It’s going to be a kick-ass, balls to wall rawk show with Black Diamond Strings, Switchmen!, and Shih Tzu Nami.
For a ‘lil smattering of what you’ll hear, check out my new single “Cool Alright” over here.
"Girls & Boys" is overflowing with joy and longing, and is one of my favorites on Aquarius. What inspired this song?
I actually wrote “Girls & Boys” after going to a gay club in Nashville called Play for the first time. I didn’t exactly like it all that much; I’m really not a fan of clubs. Regardless, the energy and the color of the room inspired the general vibe of the song. What really got me was how beautiful everyone in the room looked in a certain light, regardless of gender, even if only because they were so comfortable in themselves that they became beautiful. I ended up writing the whole thing in about 45 minutes.
SO, as most of you know, three days ago I uploaded a video for my single “Cool Alright” from my new album AQUARIUS. It wasn’t much, but it was a labor of love — something my friends and I spent a pretty good deal of time on. It ended up getting 2,500 views in just two days which, while not extraordinarily impressive, was impressive for us. It was the first sign that a buzz is actually building around AQUARIUS. Without warning, “Cool Alright” was removed from YouTube. According to YouTube, the video violated their Terms of Usage due to the use of view count gaming (i.e., gaining too many views too quickly for it to be a coincidence). YouTube seems to be under the impression that the video only got the views it did because they were payed for, which is absolute rubbish but that’s on me to defend.
They, did, however, so courteously re-upload the video for me. How polite.
I know this is not anyone’s concern other than mine, but with the hoopla this week about YouTube beginning to remove music videos by Independent Artists, it does make me the slightest bit paranoid that this is how the takedown begins: misappropriation of the user terms.
I’m begging you to not only watch the video again, but spread it to everyone. Let’s make this baby go as viral as it can because dammit if I have to be a martyr for independent music I will be. I’m aware how egotistical that sounds, but really try to understand where I’m coming from here: this was the beginning of something actually happening laterally in my career, small or not, and then it was just cancelled out. Wiped clean. It never happened.